I is soooooooo penatttttttt guysssssssss HAHAHAHAHA.
I guess that pretty much sums up my life since my last post last year sksksks.
TBH, life’s been great and definitely better than before. It’s just that so much has happened, it drained me mentally and physically. I no longer find joy in sharing and posting everything on social media. I have so many memories I’d love to share and topics I’ve wanted to talk about, but hey… you gotta rest when you feel overwhelmed, right? 😬
Hmm, so how far should I travel down memory lane? 🤔
I guess it’s best for me to kickstart everything by sharing how I’ve been feeling so far. There’s joy, tears, laughter, breakdowns, and all sorts of emotions bottled up deep in my soul. I still can’t find the ultimate way to let go and release what I feel. I guess every mom deals with this too, we’re actually falling apart inside, but we need to stand firm and appear strong for the sake of our family.
Juggling the roles and responsibilities of being a daughter, a wife, a mother, a team leader, and an employee can be excruciating. The hardest part of it all is to keep smiling, to stay present in the moment, and to cheer myself up when things go south. Don’t get me wrong, of course there’s a lot of happiness surrounding me. It’s just that I need to accept that I’m slowly losing myself.
I know things will get better, but for now, I can only hold on to what’s left of me. And deep down, I know my daughter doesn’t deserve this version of me.
I hope that when I write to you guys in my next post, the sun will find its way back to me. 🌤️
P/S: It feels so good to be writing again!
Love,
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